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Today is John's birthday.  We didn't exchange gifts, but rather just went out for a nice meal. We'd talk and laugh and just generally have a really good time.

Reflecting on that, it occurs to me that John and I could talk for a really long time, effortlessly.  With most people, I get tired out after 20 minutes or so.  John was really the only person I could talk to for hours and it just felt right.  It's hard to explain. I guess that's another reason why we were together for 10 years.

I miss him more than I can express.